Mak Nimang & Soko

Charm Heath

2010-10-23T14:31:00.000-07:00

Remember 10 things i hate about you movie? Charming as he was.

Love

2010-10-23T13:38:00.000-07:00

Berlin, Spring Break 09

2010-10-04T14:44:00.000-07:00

Prague, Spring Break 09

2010-10-03T11:37:00.000-07:00

Hasad Dengki

2010-10-01T04:42:00.000-07:00

Salam,

Well i'm not gonna elaborate more on this. mmg semua org dh maklum this kind of people.

Sedikit sebyk maybe we all have a bit of this feeling but it depend on the person.

Anyways........this past several months, i heard so many stories about people yg penuh dgn hasad dengki. not enough with kepoyo-an masing2 by showing off their superiority, konon2 baik.. but the thing is, they are the one who porak perandakan all the madness. they think what they did is good but NO! Hell No!!

Malas nk mention what sort of things yg dh terjadi but the main point is,

"Jgn nk sebuk pasal hal org and heboh2kan kt dunia, padahal diri sendiri ada byk skeleton in the closet. Bile semua org dh tau psl those 'skeletons' perasaan menyampah terus jadi benci. Mmg kene pdn ngn muka! IN YOUR FACE!!"

So,dont bother to sniff up what people do and mind your own business, if you want to give advice they are so many ways..jgn nk sebuk suh org lain..nk tegur, tegur elok2, pastu kalo nk tegur tu mmg kena sgt cermin diri sbb kalo dh diri sendiri x betul, nk tegur org lain..even benda btul tu org x mau dgr ckp kite ok? Blend it with people, be nice! dont be stuck up! dont be arrogant SOB!

Ok, phew!

Lega skit...

Till then, traa :)

Believe it or not

2010-08-27T09:26:00.000-07:00

I'm already married!! :)

Love never hurts

2010-08-26T10:15:00.000-07:00

Monkey or Sword?

2010-08-23T10:52:00.000-07:00

Traffic lights with monkey statue in Krabi town

Like that

2010-04-23T16:23:00.000-07:00

again

2010-03-23T18:05:00.000-07:00

it hurts. really hurt me.
am i over-react? or am i just..hmmm
i'm beginning to believe what i've said before.
maybe i am destined to be sad...forever..

whatever happen to hopes?
hmm,well..there're always hope.
but the pain that u have can sometimes makes u
just wanna give up. sigh..

get it done.

2010-03-09T05:48:00.000-08:00

please yes please, hope to get it all done.
had enough of this madness.
can't wait for this easter break :)

annoyed.

2010-03-09T05:44:00.000-08:00

please jerking some place else.
there's more people u can jerk off out there..

anatomy of an Ilya #5

2010-02-15T11:29:00.000-08:00

"sacrifice...i hope someone would do such thing for me..it seems that you wouldn't. poor me. "

never enough.

2010-02-05T07:40:00.000-08:00

have i?

2010-02-05T07:33:00.000-08:00

punctuation. makes all the difference

2010-02-05T07:31:00.000-08:00

anatomy of an Ilya #4

2010-02-05T06:42:00.000-08:00

"sometimes I think maybe I am destined to be sad, forever.."

anatomy of an Ilya #3

2010-02-04T10:54:00.000-08:00

"Sorry, for I am being..paranoid.
Justifiably Paranoid it is.."

anatomy of an Ilya #2

2010-02-04T10:23:00.000-08:00

"It breaks my heart every time you ignore me when you just told me to come and help"

perfect.

2010-02-04T09:48:00.000-08:00

Alanis Morisette - Perfect

Sometimes is never quite enough
If you're flawless, then you'll win my love
Don't forget to win first place
Don't forget to keep that smile on your face
Be a good boy
Try a little harder
You've got to measure up
And make me prouder
How long before you screw it up
How many times do I have to tell you to hurry up
With everything I do for you
The least you can do is keep quiet
Be a good girl
You've gotta try a little harder
That simply wasn't good enough
To make us proud
I'll live for you
I'll make you what I never was
If you're the best, then maybe so am I
Compared to him compared to her
I'm doing this for your own damn good
You'll make up for what I blew
What's the problem ...... why are you crying
Be a good boy
Push a little farther now
That wasn't fast enough
To make us happy
We'll love you just the way you are if you're perfect

it's a shame.

2010-02-04T05:17:00.000-08:00

salam,

I've just read che det's blog about the using of kalimah "Allah" by the christians.
it is a shame to read the comments. its really2 sad to read that they are many people still don't understand why the Malay Muslim doesn't want those Christians to use the word "Allah". Here's are some facts that everyone should know :

1.Malaysia although we have 3 main ethnics, the Malays, chinese & Indians, but MELAYU is still the main ethnic group and the Malay people are very patriotic about our own country. So, everything that is going on in MALAYSIA must concern the main people which is the MELAYU. and that is why the Malays are so angry when the church people want to use "Allah" in their writings. It is just unacceptable and confusing. You already know Allah is the only God to Muslims, then why they still wan to use it? Regardless what has happen in Indonesia long time ago, we cannot simply compare Malaysia with Indonesia. We are not the same, the religions issue in Indonesia is so complicated i cant imagine how. But in Malaysia, the Malay Muslim, we are very sensitive when it comes to religion issue.
It is weird and fishy why in the world would the cristians in Malaysia want to use the word "Allah" when its clear that Allah is not their god. just think about it..

2.What Tun(chedet) said is right, we never heard any christians people using the word "Allah" in their preach or anything. Then why suddenly they want to use the word "Allah"in their books or article? Generally i understand that they believe Jesus as God, and also the Trinity Concept which is God the Father, God The Son and The Holy Ghost, and never ever in the bible mention anything about praying to Allah.
"So why the Christians want to use "Allah" in the first place?"

3. I am aware that the Christians also believe in Allah,but they don't have to use the word "Allah" in their books or article because it will confuse many people generally because Allah is only associated with Islam. not other religion.
so, the christians should know better and they should have not use the word "Allah" or sorry if i may say that maybe they purposely wanted to use it in order to confuse the people, specifically the Muslim so that they can attract them to convert? Who knows?

My arguments end with just a simple solution:
"Use the word TUHAN, it is general. it can be Allah according to Muslim, Jesus according to Christians. Simple as 1,2,3..A,B,C :D"

But then again, who am i to judge, but as far as i concern, I am MELAYU and as a Muslim, this is just simply my point of view. I hope many people would understand this more and that is why the Malay Muslims are angry.

good day people,
Wassalam.

can you read my mind?

2010-02-04T02:22:00.000-08:00

The Killers - Read My Mind .mp3

It hurt so bad..

2010-02-03T12:10:00.000-08:00

Susan Tedeschi - It Hurt So Bad

anatomy of an Ilya #1

2010-02-03T11:29:00.000-08:00

"Things are suppose to get easier, not harder. i don't understand anything. I'm fucking insane.."

2010-02-03T11:22:00.000-08:00

exactly.

2010-02-03T10:58:00.001-08:00

i am serius. i can be.

2010-02-01T10:32:00.000-08:00

ok, i already told u all that i can cry easily. because of many things.
but one thing i realize, sometimes people just couldnt care less about me. i mean they didnt take me for serious. i know im always loud and crazy and always try to act cool with everything but im still a girl. i am sensitive. i want to be taken seriusly. i want to be known for good things too. but why people treat me like i am just one of those..i dont know..not important. or maybe im just being emotional? what good that we can get if we have many friends? pening! thats what i get. thats y i tend to stick to my true friends..the ones that has been with me for such a long time..they know me well..they love me. and i love them. i couldnt live w/out em..i really2 miss them so much. right now i need them. really2 do..but i cant just rely on them. i need to stay strong. i need to proof to everyone that i can be happy and enjoy myself without those jerks and so called "bajed bagus" pegi mampus ok?! i shall continue about those jerks later on.

now, im gonna go to mucuk's house.
nk tlg dia masak kari kamben. :))

again and again.

2010-02-01T04:55:00.001-08:00

haha.

i know people. i keep on changing my layout. BOSAN.
its cold, and my hard disk is left with aswad. just got back from London.
ada meeting UKEC, so called meeting for MPP around UK lah. its ok i guess, but its not that really interesting. sorry to say. compared to MPP in malaysian uni lagi menakutkan and challenging. miss everyone, but i'm too stress to contact anyone. kenapa?
sebab this coming presentation on 15th of Feb, i hate my groupmate! stupid asswhole pye mak itam. asyik nk bising je kt aku. cakap mcm yenna. aku pun dh pening, yg ko tau asyik nk marah2 aku je kan. aku je la yg malas kn? pegi mampus ok?! aku dh bg kerja ko xnk bg feedback pun. skg..ape nk jadi jadi lah!!!

owh,look forward to this feb sebab ayah nk dtg UK! yeay!!!
hopefully mucuk (sox) will be ready to face him. ehehe :)

My Heart is made from Glass

2010-01-25T13:39:00.000-08:00

I dont know why but i can say that i cry a lot now. i do! with everything thats has happen,should happen, could have happen. It just so hard to keep up with everything. i spend a lot of time thinking...thinking of what to do...why didnt i do that? and why is this happening to me? why? why? why?...there are so mane questions and thoughts.. i'm beginning to feel like. i dont know. numb? comfortably numb? i dont know. it just that when everything seems to be going well..there are things that'll screw things up, of cos by myself. how can i be so stupid? fucking ignorance. i hate myself.no dont hate myself. its just, i'm afraid with whats going to happen in the future. i used to be very excited about the future. we can build up this dream and imagines things that u want to be..and in control of what u want to happen.. but now, i'm afraid. i'm afraid of what will happen in the future.kept thinking to myself about this, will Allah permits the way that i want it to be? after all the sins i've done? to family and all..i am so frustrated with myself. i wish i could turn back time. but then again, if i could, then i would never have the chance to know Sox. i love him. yes i really do love him. i want to be with him for the rest of my life. but why didnt i feel happy? is that the punishment that Allah gives to me? will sox loves me forever? will he be succeed in his life? will i be succeed? are our parents will gives us blessing to us? will this and that? :( i dont know. i really really hope so. i know i can be so fu**ing stubborn. i am not a good person. i know. i can really be pain in the ass. i tend no to, but some people just get on my nerves. i hate them. why do they have to be such a jerk? to hell with them!

"Ya Allah, kau permudahkanlah hidupku, maafkanlah segala dosa-dosa ku...kau berikanlah aku petunjuk ke jalan yg benar..permudahkan lah jodoh kami.. tenangkanlah hatiku...buka kan lah pintu hati ku supaya aku tidak lalai dlm mengerjakan segala perintahmu dan suruhan mu Ya Allah..kuatkan lah Iman ku..."

AS COOL AS IT CAN BE

2010-01-18T19:23:00.000-08:00

Helvetica Rules!!

NEW LOVE

2010-01-07T16:38:00.000-08:00

Winter in Treforest - 2009

Thanks for having me in your life..

Anatomy of Hipsters #141

2010-01-07T11:31:00.000-08:00

PERFECT DISASTER

2009-11-29T07:26:00.001-08:00

Oxymoron.

Something so nice and beautiful and at the same time it can be the most excruciating thing that can happen........whether we like it or not we have to go back to Allah swt....

"Ya Allah Ya Tuhan ku, ku mohon ampun padamu ya Allah, aku berasa sungguh keji dan hina..aku banyak membuat dosa pada mu Ya Allah.....berikanlah aku kekuatan untuk menempuhi segala dugaan dan cabaran.......berikan lah aku jodoh yang terbaik untukku...permudahkan lah segala urusan2 ku Ya Allah.."

TURN BACK IN TIME

2009-11-21T20:04:00.001-08:00

have you ever feel like you just wanna turn back time...and hopefully all of the misery will vanish in the air and like nothing has ever happen..i really hope i can. i'm confused, i am mad, i am so freaking mad..and i am sad..i don't know why I'm becoming like this. i thought i was the most easy and laid back girl, but no! why do i have to think about this? why is it so complicated?

why can i just be like everyone else and just be happy for the things that they've got?

Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku, please give me strengths to face all these problems and please take away all my sorrows....

BRIGHTLY WOUNDED

2009-11-12T04:44:00.000-08:00

"They were in love. you could tell just by the way they looked at each other, like they had the most wonderful secret in the world between them..."

"Sometimes a heart can't afford to be just friends..."

Autumn in my heart

2009-10-15T11:35:00.000-07:00

"Once upon a time,

in a far away land, there live a little girl named Pinky. She lives with 3 gummy bears...."

Nahh! i went on some photo session with Hariz, Peyek, Jalal and KK, two days in a row. Being the minority in our small community, it just so happen that they wanted to test their new SLR or payung or whatever gadget u called it. It was a good exposure for me. I know i like photographs, but not that much. my laziness doesnt let me to go to that extent

Weird, awkward..yes i know i've been posing a lot with those crazy friends that i love dearly.

but some how i felt weird during the photoshoot. maybe its because the photographers were like almost like a pro's or maybe i just met them. x bole nk tunjuk perangai buruk lagi la

kan? haha..

Overall,

it was a nice experience..to me and my dear friend Kattelee from Patta

ni.

My very own Big Breakfast

2009-10-02T14:49:00.001-07:00

Just feel like eating baked beans for breakfast. Every morning, i got the house for my own. No one to gossip or chat. Pian & Afuk got morning class. So here i am, all by myself.

I remember how mama use to make us this very same dish for breakfast. But of course, mama buat lagi sedap lah kan? hehe :)

Kecik, aku suka kau masak. mmg sedap!

Zer, lamanye kau jumpe gf. Nak gelak2 ngn kau.

Aku bosan.

Across the world and never look back

2009-10-02T14:16:00.000-07:00

16th Sept 09 - my 1st nite in Uk ( Edgware Road, London)

Finally, i've gone out of home. Yes, i've been waiting for my whole life just to be away. Away from my love ones. Don't get me wrong darls, but I just needed the time and space. Just to wondering and learning all by myself. I know i've been such pain in the ass for some people. but trust me, i just need to experience new things. i've been bored for quite some time now. Not just the people but malasyia is just not that nice to me somehow.not rite now. i just want to be far far away..

Whether i'll succeed or not is not my concern, i just want to live my new life rite now. and when i've had enough of everything. I'll come back home. and live there forever and will love each and every moment in malaysia. Just NOT NOW :D

Just arrive here in UK at 3.52pm (UK time) after long 12 hours flight from KL.

I'm travelling with a mate Sufian which is also my housemate. I could not think about family. especially Hannan, my dear lil sister who i know will miss me the most. It just so hard and so sad just to think about it. I can't dwell my emotion to that place. "Kak Yan sayang Hannan..Kak Yan rindu Hannan sgt sgt.." If only i can say those words to her. NO!! i would burst into tears. and so is she. Which later then I heard from a friend back at KLIA. He said that Hannan was screaming and crying loudly calling my name again and again. She even climb up the pagar at KLIA just to see me but i just kept going. and not looking back at all. I JUST COULDN'T.

My second day in UK, some guy who i dont even know and just could not even care less even if he had help me..called a MERCEDEZ limo just to take us to a bus station and WE ARE SUPPOSE TO PAY FOR THE LIMO????. I mean, WTF? i thought that a******* would have know that we're were being paid by my so called uncle latif and he'd pay for everything. Argh! what a shitty day to begin. but i'm looking forward for wales. and here we go!

Bite Me

2009-08-31T18:47:00.000-07:00

i'll be back! soon.

My Muse

2009-06-10T00:56:00.000-07:00

Been very confused lately,very very.

so many things happen. not the usual ones though.

m always sad....about things that i don't even understand and don't even sure of. so i've find a way. A way to distract me from over thinking of the things that are unsure.

Been so into fashion lately. but not the houte couture, ANTM kind of stuff. but the fashion of real people in the world mostly in europe. i have my own style but then sometime its kinda difficult to follow 'em when the parents not very keen of it. heh.

nway, i'm addicted to lookbook now. so i found this girl who i think has the most brilliant sense of fashion. love her eyes, her hair, and her fashion is some kind of laid back and not so glamour. oh wat i like to call..COOL!

Adeline Rapon, France

Apart from Adeline, the girl that i've always love to watch is Alexa Chung, a model turn to TV presenter from England. She's half Chinese and half English. She was Alex Turner's (The Arctic Monkey frontman) lover. how cool! Another brilliant fashionista!

Alexa Chung, England

sorting out old clothes to let go.

wanting to add new ones :)

Singing after Jogging di pagi hari

2009-06-08T11:58:00.000-07:00

2 makhluk perosak di tepi kolam

11:00 am - Just after jogging(sbenarnye brace walk aje kot! heh)
Joey : Karaoke Jom!
Aku : hmm..btul ke?
Joey : Ye la..serius ni.
Aku : Selambe la. jom!

Graduation the 2nd

2009-06-08T08:21:00.000-07:00

Yup..its my 2nd time..

ok je..biase la..tp cam best sebab name aku awal and dpt gak 2nd class Upper..sbb degree aku kali ni merudum..jatuh berderai! pemalas pye pasal..still above 3 la :)

xde sape yg dtg kecuali mummy and daddy (sejak bile aku panggil cmtu?) xkisah la..

mama ngn ayah dtg..bagi bunga yg besar! thanks sgt muah muah mama n ayah! (bole eh cenggitu?)
ape2 pun konvo diploma gak best! lebih gementar and lebih meriah,,ye la dulu ramai kawan skg ni dh kurang skit..kenape? xyah tau la..tp kami ok ok belaka :))

Congrats Everyone!!

BBA (Hons) International Business '08

2 years earlier...

Diploma in Business Studies '06

we're alone with each other

2009-06-08T08:02:00.000-07:00

hello semua..

well this particular day is way over,tp baru teringat nk update. so that day we suppose to take our jubah for convocation and raptai and all..cam biase aku,eda & hafiz dh siap awal.

after amik jubah we called bob & syafiq who suppose to join us later utk sesi fotografi..

well..boys will be boys..janji tnggal janji..3 of us dh mls nk tunggu so end up going to pyramid and treat ourself for some shopping spree..

the 3 of us are mostly comfortable with each other..we laugh and cracked ourself.. fikir balik nasib baik yg lain xjoin..kalo x susah nk gossip :PP nway the 3 of us have so much fun.

i bought my self an Esprit Purse and pink checkered shirt which aku pkai terus! hahaha.

hafiz beli kasut everlast utk kerja kat topman (kene stylo milo la konon) hahaha. but aku yg pilih kasut tu so bangge la jugak! hehe. eda pun beli mcm aku but the blue colour.

later we had dinner at kedai makan tepi quality hotel. and of cos bile dh smpai quality hotel wajib karaoke!!! hehee.. yeah! we had a lot of fun together. love u both! kite mmg rock!! :D

Likewise, Dinner 3 Budak Biru in Subang Parade

2009-05-19T06:44:00.000-07:00

Aloha!

since im in the mood of updating so here it is. last 2 weeks Zohri aka Joey and Pinto aka Fiat Pinto bwk aku gi subang parade. Its about time joey blanje, he's giving many excuses before this. finaly,nafsu membuak2 2 jejaka ni utk mkn secret recipe telah membawakan kepada dinner kami pd mlm tu. borak punye borak, mkn pye mkn, siap kacau waiter secret recipe. joey ah ni..suke kacau org! haha. I'm touched by Pinto's story. we should all bersyukur for our health becos not all of us are lucky. sometime we take things for granted. i know always do. i hope i can change. i want to.hmm ape lah Emo plak ni. Anywayyyy.. its good to have people to just hang and let loose some of the extra beggage on workload. but after that, BAM! terus tido. penat nk gila! huhu. Joey bought himself a pair of t-shirt at Giordano.. argh! if only aku pun bwk extra money. tp kene sbr. just hv to wait until i get to UK and go crazy on shopping. *finger crosses*

nwy,the long version of this story can be read in Joey's hehe :)

Thanks Joey & Fiat Pinto :)
we shud do this more often.
ABC jom! haha

Delay & Pre-Bday

2009-05-19T06:15:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum,

its been awhile. yah everytime i update i'll be saying its a long time since i update. but hell, mmg dh lama pn kan? hmm maybe malas nk ceritakan ape yg dh byk berlaku or im just plain lazy.
hmm..bile la nk berubah..

10 May was my bday and was quite sad cos fakhry wasnt here to celeb with. i miss him..
and thats why...............we've made a pre-bday for both of us. yeay!! it was end of april i guess. (huh,gile la xingt)we went to pyramid and had a dinner at Bubba Gumb Shrimp.(oh i love this place) he bought a cake, for both of us but he gave it to the waiter in bubba gump to keep it until desert time.when they asked whose bday is it, of cos fakhry kata bday aku. then all of the waiter & waitress gather around our table and i thought, "alamak ni mesti nk nyanyi ramai nihhh" but then they pull out a chair and asked me NOT to SEAT on it but to STAND on it! gile la weh! nk wat cmner dh sume org tgk, aku pun berdiri la atas kerusi tu..and all the waiter n waitress starting cheering loudly...and saying sarcastic thing about birthday and it was soo hilarious! but then they asked me to GOYANGKAN PINGGUL! yes!! if not they wont give my bday cake! aiyahhhhhh!! goyang inul la aku mlm tu. siot ok! tp buat bodo je sbb aku xkenal sapa2 pun dlm restoran tu. fakhry got it on tape ok mase tu. malu jaakkk! but anyway it was a fun night. thanks to my lovely fakhry, although before this event happen we had a huge fight! argh! susah la nk elak from bergaduh. dem! but i love u honey!

here's the vid. mmg bodoh je rase tp sgt best :D

Happy birthday to us syg :)

Climb the wall

2009-03-25T21:04:00.000-07:00

Hello peeps,

Lame dh aku x update blog. seriusly bile dh keje ni, all other things seems unimportant and rase malas tu akan meluap2-luap..
Well, parents n lil sis is in JAKARTA, i'm home alone.. have nothing to do at home but watch tv.
yesterday went WALL CLIMBING. Yes! Wall Climbing! i thought it wud be easy, yelah dulu suka pnjat2 pokok tinggi2 mcm xde masalah so ingtkan mcm senang.

but 1st day je si hapis lupa bawak tali, so i climb the wall without the safety rope. bole bayangkan x?so agaknye bape tinggi je la aku leh pnjat kan? haha. tangan aku terus rasa berat dan kebas. gile ak rase mcm budak gemuk yg xbole pnjat. damn! need to excersise!! this is like ALERT!!!
mmg tahap gile gaban la. i got no stamina, no strength. seriusly i'm starting to feel like a fat loser. but hell, i've got to overcome this situation rite now! hmm.. tolonglaaaa....

ok ni btul2 kene make it work. si fakhry pun dh bising siap bg dumbell suh aku guna.
ok syg i will try to kuruskan bdn i mcm model! yeah rite! but wth!! i'm gonna give it a try.
for u hunny, and for me...so that aku bole berfesyen tanpa perlu memikirkan tentang muat ke x baju/seluar yg aku nk pakai.

**chalo babes,
aku kene smbung keje smbil usha engineer & technician2 yg hensem...
jgn marah ye yang.hehe ;pp

giliran aku pulak!

2009-02-01T08:06:00.000-08:00

me n fakhry, we havent seen each other for about 3 weeks..so this time i asked him to take me to klcc cos dah lame gilaa x gi klcc. cant remember when was our last time kitorg gi. mcm dh 2 tahun kot. huhu. nways, my real intention is to go SHOPPING! yes! its my turn now! dh lame dh aku sabar je..duit gaji dh 3 bulan x sentuh2 lg, and with my bisnes is going on so well now, i think i deserve to have some pleasure :)

i know cam poyo gler nk kecoh psl shopping2 nih, tp dulik ape aku!! sbb puas ati sgt shopping aku nk gak berblog! nways, i've came across the cute slippers at NOSE, murah jugak..mmg dh nak beli dh then suddenly si fakhry ni asked me to try this GRAY WEDGES..very high wedges u see..i'm like, ok i'll give it a try.then OMG!! its really like LAWA GILER!! been seing this kind of wedges worn by celebs. I felt in live with it instantly! and i bought it!! HAHAAA..yg paling best, TERUS PAKAI TUH!!! :DDD
ingt aku dh xkan pki high heels but who knows? i just change my mind just like that! of course,when the right shoes come, u just can't control urself from not buying it.;p

Marni Wedges

same kan? =))

and then there were the bags...ILYA & BAGS are like inseperable u see..haha.
mule kat NOSE tu ada satu bag hijau yg lawa jugaklah. but the price's not! so jln2 kt MNG jmpa this one sling bag in NAVY BLUE, cute sgt! i never had this kind of bag. cute,the price is quite high la but not as mahal as the green bag. so duk ulang alik frm MNG n NOSE then i decided to buy th BLUE one. Fakhry pun approve :)

Then after stroling around klcc park we got back to shah alam and have dinner.
we ate at this small stall at dataran s.alm where we usually hang out before we head back home..

mmg puas hati! hahaha..

peace y'all!

Life End

2009-01-29T08:23:00.000-08:00

I'm not talking about how my life ended. RU KIDDING ME?!!
Ok serius, its really about how easy our life can end (MATI), without knowing how or when..

but recently somehow i got to met two people whom no one knows that their life is going to an end...it kinda spooks me a bit. ntah bile la plak giliran kite ye?
and that get me thinking about all the things that i've done..good and bad..
byk benda yg kene diperbetulkan..hish! takutnye..
hope to be a better person. will try HARD..Insyallah..

**
Al fatihah to my cousin Arwah Harith bin Roslee (14 years old) who just died 3 weeks ago bcos of kidney failure

KEDS & MISCHA BARTON

2008-12-28T11:38:00.000-08:00

since i cant stand to wear high heels, and i already tried wedges, i've been wearing flat shoes and pumps (ala2 kasut penguin zaman dlu yg laki selalu pakai) xtaula if y'all tau ke dak. hehe. but i've own several of them. pakai smpai lusuh n koyak, beli lg..pakai smpai koyak...beli lg. ;p

then i came across this KEDS COLLECTION. the shoes are INCREDIBLY BEAUTIFUL!
i've been wanting to grab at least on of those. Its a UK brand, and hopefully kalo dpt smbg Master kt UK (insyaallah) mmg aku nk pi beli gak KASUT KEDS :)))

I look on their website and it is very COOL i tell u. u can even design ur own shoes. How interesting!

BOLE X NAK BELI SEMUA??

BELOW : THESE 3 SHOES WERE DESIGN BY ME :)))

**jadi la tu for my 1st time attemp. hehe

good day!
=)

GLADIATORS BABY!!

2008-12-28T09:59:00.000-08:00

i was walking around at SACC Mall, buying gift for my anniversary ;p
mmg x pk nk shopping lah. but when i check my StandChartd acc, my half month pay check just in! i mean like OMG!! n aku still belum terpk nk shopping. but lucky me, Sacc Mall is having MEGA SALE, so i went in to Vincci. just looking and looking, just to see if there's any nice and cheap (i mean ade discount la) Gladiators. at first i saw this turquoise gladiators but size 7 dh abis. And thank god size 7 tu xda if not i would have bought that gladiators and not buy the REALY AMAZING STYLISH gladiators!
WHY?
its very simple design, not like most gladiators with long straps with buckle..i hate buckle sandels!
the colours is just Shining Bright :)

and LUCKY ME, this one have in size 7 :DDDDDDD
i love it!! by just looking at it i could smile and smile..i could never get bored.
price?? RM35 ONLY!!!!!!!!!

Here's some of the Trendiest Gladiators
**maybe next time i'll buy them..hehe

** nasib baik aku x gila kasut, if not i would be BROKE! :p

SELAMAT MENYAMBUT MAAL HIJRAH!!

see yah!
XOXO..

BRAG ABOUT BAG

2008-12-28T09:45:00.000-08:00

ok, some of u may know that i get crazy when it get to bags..i just LOVE 'EM!! and i wanted THEM ALL!! in ALL COLOURS!! in ALL DESIGNS!! but hello, duit pun x byk sgt kan nk beli yg designers collection pye. so i bought the SPLURGE ones. still hv similar design but in very CHEAP price! for me to get new bags, i've to sold my old ones, sbb lame2 kang x pakai pulak. and i really love to buy the ones with latest design :D

so here's the only bags that i own.yg lain sume, already sold! :)

i just bought this new RED tote, but i plan to sell it :)
its brand new and price tag pun x tanggal lg..hehe
anyone want it?? very nice huh? it cost more than RM100.
tp sbb sale, so dpt la murah skit. :DDD

** still waiting for my new bag to arrive :)

anyone who wants to buy stylish & trendy bag
just go to http://knickandknackshop.blogspot.com

im out!

TOTALLY OVERSIZED!

2008-12-28T09:13:00.000-08:00

i eat a lot. i mean a lot. smpai my bf is like "membebel" about my weight.
so of cos most of my tops mcm ketat kt perut.. so..i just have to wear BIG blouse whenever i go out. kalo x mmg burukla ngn perut buncit ni. but thats where the good news is. OVERSIZED SHIRT IS THE IN THING today in fashion.

and so...this is where my addiction to oversized shirt started...here's my new Oversized Tops that i just bought.

Left top : red & white bf's shirt - bought it at Uptown 24
Left down : black & white stripes shirt - frm W3 - LITTLE BLACK BOOK (Sbg Parade)
Right top : yellow mustard cardigan - Nicole (Parkson)
Right down : cute oversized blouse - my supplier :)

I LOVE ALEXA CHUNG!! love her style! very casual but yet sophisticated. people said she's like the next Sienna Miller. Yes, she always wears oversized shirt!! she said women should know how to teased people by the way they dress. i totally understand whats that mean. Do you?? :p

Ashley Olsen in oversized shirt. Love it!

nice huh?? :)

Peace y'all!

Business Women

2008-12-27T12:46:00.000-08:00

Hey everybody!!

i've been very busy lately handling my new biz now. hehe.
u'll hv no idea how quick this is. last month i was just day dreaming about open up an online boutique selling BAGS..always surfing other ppl blogs..and now..ITS MY TIME!!

CHECK OUT BABES!!

cool x? hehehe.

and hey,u cn just shop here too!! and its CHEAP!

nways, gotta go. byk benda nk kene buat nih..

Muahx!!

Ku Pendam Sebuah Duka

2008-12-01T09:03:00.000-08:00

Bercinta sudah lama
Berkasih dan bermesra
Sedang enak membuai rasa
Perpisahan tercipta

Mengapa sementara
Cerahnya cinta kita
Mendung tiba tiada ku pinta
Gelapnya suasana

Walaupun hatiku
Amat berat melepasmu
Dan rintangan mendatang sayang
Terpaksa kuleraikan

Seandainya...
Kita harungi jua
Kelak punah semua sayang
Mimpi yang kau harapkan

Ku pasti kau kembali
Menyatu dua hati
Lebih elok cari pengganti
Tiada kau menyendiri

Tak guna disesalkan
Hakikat percintaan
Mungkin terpendam kenikmatan
Sebalik perpisahan...

The lyrics tells all. sedih sgt lagu nih..smpai menangis aku dgr.

THE AIZAT

2008-09-17T08:16:00.000-07:00

Have ya'll heard 'Hanya Kau Yg Mampu' by Aizat?
if not, u're missing the most wonderful song for the year! yes!! the MOST lovey touchey song jiwang gila tp mmg best gila wacakaplu.......................
mamat tembam ni dh kurus and he is one the perintis for the future music producer.
he produced the song and the lyrics by himself, that is quite an achievement for a very young boy who is just trying to enter the industry.

GO GO AIZAT!!

wannabe..(no this is not the Spice Girls' song)

2008-09-16T11:11:00.000-07:00

I was just browsing into several local indie bands,just to check out their songs and what were their activites and all. i found that most bands sounds just the same,basically. i may not know a thing or two about music but i think i know how to recognise the good and bad ones. sadly, i think some of the bands are what i called "White Trash". at least that what i called for the mat saleh..they were just all over the places..the sounds are awfull. the drum sounds weird and loud. are they just doing it because they think making a band is the "IT" thing today? or they really2 have the passion for it? i don't know. i may never know. but what i can tell u is that they sounded Trassh!! sorry to say lah kan..again i may not be true,but it looks like they are just the wannabe peeps who trying hard to fit in the "COOL" crowd. not to mention the crowd who listen and come to their gigs and just jumping all over..i mean "are they even listening to the songs?????" this is why i think the music industry cannot survive in malaysia. unless u're MAWI. if the crowd were fed with this lousy and trashy songs, then they will never know the real i mean REAL songs that have good rythm and good quality. learn from the indonesian, they really2 take advantage of the "mat saleh songs" and try to make it in their own way. well, u can say that they maybe copying or whatever but hey, at least they sounded GOOD.

whatever it is, there are some bands that i think is superb! THE FRIDAYS for instance, they really2 know how to make songs. u guys should hear their songs..my fren BOB plays the drum. hehe. anyway, u can hear them at myspace.com/thefridays

ok people,its almost sahur time.
happy fasting to all..

mixed feelings..

2008-08-10T04:22:00.000-07:00

This weekend has been the most relaxing.. i haven't got much time spending with my family on weeknds..so i love it! my sister in perak were in town..and ayah just got here from umrah..i think this weeknd worked so well.. i have them all right here..we went shopping at SACC Mall, got a few new shirts..this is one of the things I LOVE to do with my parents. SHOPPING with them was like "Yeah!!!" can buy all the mahal2 things..hahaha..

Anyway the only reason that i was not very keen is about my cousin who is staying with us for the moment before he went to MIAT. its not anything bad really, just that i don't like having stranger or poeple who i havent know that much. and most of all it's a boy. susah la nk pakai seksi2 kt umah.. i hope he got to MIAT ASAP!

I think i just realized that i'm a home person rather than outgoing one. of course i love going out with some friends at times but not all the time. unlike some people i know.
haaah! talking about this, there this person who is i think is very PATHETIC! ok i may be kinda harsh, but hey! i'm being honest! ok u got ditch by ur BF, i'm sorry for u.. we all are. but stop being annoying and put an act like "hey i'm feeling so happy lets go out EVERY WEEKEND!!"or even "Hey, last weekend was the most enjoying moment"----like OMG! is it everythime u're going out was like the most enjoying time? Hello? we're not stupid! we know u're sooooo freaking sad because u got DUMPED by ur bf! ok i may sound cruel, but i just can't take it the FAKENESS that u put up on your face and act as if u're so bubbly and happy all the time. we know what exactly going up on ur head...i have a friend who just also have the same experience but she's being realistic! CRY UR HEART OUT! and have all ur closest friends around u.
but please stop being...FAKE! and ANNOYING!

Next, about my new 'job' its not really exciting or challenging. its too....i don't know what the correct word to describe it..hmm..Bored? kinda true also..haha..but it pay good money though.
Me being the real me...cannot stick on one thing for very long time (not about men ok, i'm loyal to my BF.hehe..) i mean i always wanted something exciting and to learn something new.
Here..i just check documents...and qoute any discrepancies on the docs..THATS IT! nothing more. thats so like.."mcm keje kilang" u know what u gonna do everyday! and doing the same thing all over again. am i being picky? Yes! i realize i'm a lazy gal who wants a good job with good pay...nak study lagi..oh please! i cant stand books right now.
i think my sense of being 'SEDERHANA' has gotten used to me. i just wanna be happy with my loved ones..have a good job with a good pay and have kids. thats all i want.. i don't care if i don't have millions of dollars on my bank. but as long as i can buy anything that can make me comfortable and good quality i'm already satisfied.hmm i miss my fakhry. heh. hope he's doing alright with his work.

ok thats all for now. it hink i've said much.
see ya'll next time..
have a good day everyone!

Cindel & Wicked

2008-07-08T08:52:00.000-07:00

My stars keep me company and they stay through the night..

My stars keep watching over when i feel in disguise

Some things change but something psycho never as they are...

In the sky shining high,

my stars...

I still remember the song when I watch one of my best childhood movie EWOK.

Gosh! I miss my childhood year.. I wanna go back.. back to those years where everything is so happy and enjoyful.

The character in the movie, Cindel and Ewok are best of friends. Both of them were so adorable. The movie is so fascinating! Even for an adult! It’s George Lucas. Of cos lah kan? Anyway, the movie itself is a journey…a wonderful and adventurous journey ever!

Of cos there’re some sad scenes in this movie. Especially when both of cindel and wicked parents’ died. Poor those two lil babies…

aren't they the cutest?

I tried to download the movie but thank god my sister had already done it because she is too.. a wicked’s admirer! Haha. I really miss those time when we were kids…I wish I could turn back time. =)

so called soul mates..

2008-07-07T08:32:00.000-07:00

Ok first of all I am not talking about THE soul mate like a Bf or husband.

Have u ever feel like the friends that you have is not really ur friends? like your friends have are just bunch of names but they actually couldn’t care less about you but they just act as if they really care, just for the sake of being friends? Still x phm? Ok I give up. Just bare with my words ok.

Well I’ve been keeping this feeling for quite awhile now. First, I am saying that masuk bakul and angkat sendiri, but I think I’ve been very supportive whenever my friends needed me. I really am feel sorry and sad for them if they have any problem n wat not, but somehow, I just really feel unappreciated. Some people take advantage for the things that I had and will ask for my help. Of cos I would. Y shouldn’t i? but f*** man! After all the things that I’ve done, is this really how IT repay me? I called it cos im just fucking pissed off! I don’t think I could ever volunteer myself to do anything for IT anymore.

What an ass could it be? Being the so called everybody’s friend and pretending to know about everything. Get a life! Yes! that what I should say to it. Stop invading everybody’s life. Sudahla aku ni baik hati kesian kan ko sbb byk benda ko teringin tp x dpt cos u’re so fucking u***! But u treat me like shit! I don’t want to give all the details what it had done to me but they sure enough to make me pissed off! Sometimes I just think that it may be jealous of me because I have more friends, I have cute BF, got a pretty good car, then may it think that to hell with me no need to make merry of mine. For the love of god everybody has that!

What is it about me that make that stupid person just ignored mine? Pretending to be in help then when I offer it, and owh.u already have a help on ur way and not letting me in. GO TO HELL lah! U and all your so called soul mates.. I hope y’all be happy with your so called “exciting” and “loving” life. Pity u! if this what makes u happy so be it. I don’t even care. But just stop asking me for help. Cos I wont help u no more…..once u did bad things to me, I will hurt u back 10 times more. (I may not be that cruel) but yes that what I really intend to do..I’d never feel like this before I mean this is too much! i think I have it all but I’m not. I really don’t. should I say this all so that it will be sad for me then it would be nice to me? Like hell no. friends shoud be supportive in everything. In my case, not! They just think that I have it all and I have nothing to worry about so they would never feel sad or feel pity for me. Yah! Thank u very much! now I know I don’t have it all. I don’t have Real Friends. Is that what make it happy? I guess ur dream come true ha? Somehow this is why I think I feel really close to friends that are differing sex with me. I think I’m one of the lads. I always be one of the lads. Haha. Jealous? Be very jealous if you want to.

Ok I guess I should stop now. gotta go to work tomorrow. Love the new works. Cool frens.=)

Adios amigos.

Shopping Madness in Bandung..

2008-06-27T10:05:00.000-07:00

The 3 days in Bandung (25^th June - 27^th June 2008) is the craziest days!

I can’t say much! Not now. But what I wanna tell u guys is that BANDUNG IS THE SHIZZLE!!

I mean how often u can get to shop and shop n shop!! Which I almost drop but I don’t think so..haha. I still bring quite a lot of money home.

It just so hard to find all these beautiful shirts, blause, tops, skinny jeans, begs and a whole lot more that u can get for cheap prices.

All I can show now are the things that I’ve bought. I'm still waiting for the dindas to upload our photos back there. So here they are…don’t be jealous k? hehe..

love hurts..but it makes me feel alive.

2008-06-14T10:43:00.000-07:00

Tonight we drink to youth
And holding fast the truth
Don't want to lose what I had as a boy
My heart still has a beat
But love is now a feat
As common as a cold day in L.A.

Sometimes when I'm alone I wonder
Is there a spell that I am under
Keeping me from seeing the real thing

I'm fettered and abused
Stand naked and accused
Should I surface, this one-man submarine?
I only want the truth!
So tonight we drink to youth!
I'll never lose what I had as a boy

Sometimes when I'm alone I wonder
Is there a spell that I am under
Keeping me from seeing the real thing?

Love hurts
But sometimes it's a good hurt
And it feels like I'm alive
Love sings
When it transcends the bad things
Have a heart and try me
'cause without love I won't survive

this song really suits my mood right now. love does hurts. it truly does.

disconcert i am

2008-06-14T10:31:00.000-07:00

It is Saturday, got no plan for the weekend. Mama is sick. Unfortunately she’s having problem with her periods. I’m scared. But I hope she will be ok. Ok back to the real reason why I wrote this. For the love of god I don’t know how many times me n fakhry got into fights. Big or small the matter was, we just keep on fighting. But as usual we somehow manage to end all those fighting. Deep inside me, I think I‘ve never been satisfied. I mean the way we forgive each other. It is either I tend to back off and just put aside me or when he just gave up and just followed what I say. Sounds fake, I mean no matter how hard I try to explain to him what I was having or what makes me angry and not satisfy with anything, he just did not want to listen. It hurt so bad when i try so hard to make things work between us but then he just look at our argument is like so silly and he thinks that I just over react. But seriously don’t! He just don’t understand! Sometime he just refuse to listen and just pretend to be interested. I don’t know how long I can take this kind of burden. I love him. So much! But like we all always heard, love isn’t everything.

For me, I’m still thinking that he just doesn’t know how to understand me.

I really don’t know how I am going to do with him. We love each other so very much. There’s no doubt about it. But it just so much more for us to understand and in my case for him. I know being a medic student he may not has a lot of time to think about relationship and all the little things or big things that he should know and understand. About me. He should really think about me, I mean I have so many things in my mind that I wanna do and there are so many things that I want to explore but being with him I find that it is very difficult for me to experience all that because we always be very careful about everything. I am happy with him but I just don’t feel the excitement anymore.

We are so different. But I thought it would be interesting but some I guess not. I can’t tell him about the music I love, the book that I’ve read or the movie or anything that I have interest in. not that I can’t tell him about all those things, but it just he would never understand about it and therefore I think it may be waste of time telling him about things he don’t understand or unfamiliar with. I hate myself. I hate myself because now I’m becoming more like him. I mean I never wanted to hurt anyone’s feeling but he always doing that to me and now I’m just like him. I become an angry person and I tend to be snobbish and look people down on me. I realize that when people do bad things to me, then I tend to do bad things to them back. And that is why sometime me n fakhry got into an argument, because I hurt his feelings. But I would never do that if he never did that to me. That is one of my problems that I need to work on.

No matter how hard I try to make things work, but if he just refuse to listen I don’t know what I’m gonna do…maybe time will decide. I hope he could change. I really hope so.

Its been awhile I know.
Good nite peeps.

OK GO! gut busted dancers..

2008-05-28T20:23:00.000-07:00

Hello everyone..
Ok being free all the times and got nothing to do other than chores and baby sitting..i finally gut stucked to my laptop watching freaking n funny videos on youtube.

OK GO! is freakin' awesome! i mean how many band did u see make their own videos and choreograph a freking funny dance? it looks like on youtube there are tonnes of other people impersonating their dance and the band even made a contest the "OK GO DANCE COMPETITION". Surprisingly all of them were good at it. They were so popular even in some countries they are even bigger than Justin Timberlake. haha...Seriusly i want to dance like them too u know! Anyone with me????

check out their gut busted videos!

A million ways to be cruel

Here it goes again

and so did i..

2008-05-15T11:23:00.000-07:00

Hello to all..
I'm back in the bloggie world..Srew my last blog cos it reminds me of some boy in the past.
Since i've been with my dearly beloved mat kental i though i would never have to blog again cos everything seems to be perfect and all (as if!!)

Well life is not that easy as it seems to be and now i got tonnes of it so here i am, back in the game. but seriously, its not just about blabbering about probs but i hope i can put some joyful moments here. and hopefully lots of it.

Its 3.20am now, i.ve better sleep now.
Good nite bloggies..